Back then it was so easy to see myself doing this.
But now?
Right now, there is no part of my heart that is urging me to do this. My soul is lying on the floor begging me not to go through with it.
Right now I don't want to hear that this is a good opportunity, or that I am going to be a million times happier there.
Because right now, all I'm aware of is the sound of my breaking heart and the look on your face.
Right now, I know that I don't want to leave you. I don't want you to cry every time I mention me leaving. I don't want you to feel sadness as the days aim towards the departure date.
Right now, I'm not ready.
I'm just not...
